That can be a pretty loaded word. What is intuition? How do you know when you have it? What do you do with it?
Intuition is different for everyone. Some might have a clear voice they hear saying ‘don’t do that’, for others it might just be a gut feeling you can’t put your finger on. Even further, I think (if you have an anxiety disorder, it can be hard to decipher which feelings are which) when we feel anxiety about something, or you have a physical hair-stands-on-end feeling, that’s also our intuition trying to find a way to make contact.
Intuition is incredibly valid, and is essentially a way for your subconscious (or other factors, if you so believe, like spirit guides) to communicate something to you that you’ve ignored, repressed, or maybe just don’t even know how to listen to. Our world we live in is noisy and loud, and it can be hard to hear yourself. Your real, true, honest, knowing self.
I recently had the opportunity for something I was very excited about and actively pursued. The first day, I felt completely different energy than I had during the process. The second day, even more so. There wasn’t anything inherently wrong, and everyone was nice and kind, but it just felt off. So, I stepped away.
And as soon as I stepped away formally, the feeling in my gut that was a mixture of anxious and horrible and guilty and other feelings I don’t think even have names, completely went away. It was almost immediate relief.
I was tempted to push the feeling down, ignore it, ‘I’ll get over it’, what have you. But I’ve done that in the past, and it never works for very long. And usually when you get to the point where you can’t keep it down anymore, it becomes explosive and destructive in some way. I decided to listen to it this time. How would it feel? How would it feel if I honored something I knew on some deeper level than just my superficial thoughts?
It feels right. There is a comfort and rightness in trusting yourself implicitly that I can not explain, and I hope you knew this before I did and are already familiar with that feeling. In the past several months, I have begun to trust myself in a way I never have before. I’ve always sought some kind of outside force to put my trust into, rather than myself.
And yes, of course you still need support. Support from your friends, family, a partner. The support I receive from my husband is incredible and immeasurable. Can I reveal something even more personal here? I don’t think I allowed him to support me in the way he does now, because I didn’t support myself, my inner voice, that ‘something’ that is guiding me. By supporting myself and my intuition, he’s more supportive of me, or maybe I’m just now really taking notice of it like I should.
There is freedom in listening to your intuition. If you feel your gut saying ‘get out’/’don’t do that’ or ‘go for it’/’you need to do this’, listen to it. Really listen to it.